I'm not exactly sure why but I think it's because I try too hard. I am a planner, a goal setter, a person who likes to get the job done. All those things are good, but when your plan doesn't work out and your goal isn't achieved you start to feel disappointed and negative.
I didn't make it for the Illustration Friday submissions this week or last. Instead I concentrated on redrawing the Jungle Babies artwork I wanted to put up on Etsy today. But I just couldn't get them done.I had my trusty Prismacolors, my desk all set up, my sketches, even Kiki the hula-dancing monkey to help me out....but it just didn't happen. Then in my Eeyore-ish state I started to think of all the other things that just aren't happening either. Cleaning the bathroom, for instance, doing our taxes, getting my fur babies their shots, getting more exercise, reading my Bible and spending time with God....ending world hunger, bringing peace to the Middle East, paying off my parent's mortgage, finding a cure for cancer, securing a loving family for every orphan.... you see where this dramatic pity party is going don't you.
So I'm gonna have to knock that off. Obviously my attitude and my priorities need to be shifted.
It's really not about what I can do anway. It's about who I am and who God wants me to be. The refining process not the achievement of my own goals.
"So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded, YOU NEED TO PERSEVERE so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what He has promised." Hebrews 10:35-36